TRUE FORM

This is not my true form, what have I become? My face has become rotten again and the thought of me drives me mad, so sickening. I don’t feel human anymore, for why I have been born in this skin. Why don’t you understand this is sickening. WHY WON’T ANYONE LISTEN?? I’m crying and itching my face, for I am a disgrace. It’s awfully rotten. How can you allow yourself to even be seen! FOR ALL I WANT TO DO IS SCREAM FROM THIS PRISON. A PRISON OF THIS FLESH AND PERCEPTION!!!!!!

My mind is so beyond my years, and beautiful,  but when I’m seen you will never suspect it. For I am hideous and look awfully shallow. I don’t want to last in this face, for yet another tomorrow. Please oh please free me, free this body of mine. For I do not want to die again this time. I WANT TO BE BEAUTIFUL, I WANT TO BE SEEN. But this is how everyone looks at me. What do I do, how do I change? WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ME, TO YOURSELF, TO THE WORLD? 

I wish i was beautiful, i can’t say it enough. My whole body itches, and I’ll itch until my skin rips apart. How sickening!!! HELP ME I AM SO TRAPPED I COULD DIE AS I SINK INTO THIS SKIN TONIGHT!!! It’s disgusting, so yucky, so gross. I want to hurt myself but I’m not delicate enough for that. UGLY UGLY UGLY YOU DRIVE ME INSANE. IF I COULD KILL AND STAB MY FACE SO MANY TIMES, I WOULD DO IT IN EVERY LIFETIME!!! I WANT TO STRANGLE MYSELF AND ERASE MYSELF FROM THIS WORLD. DON’T YOU SEE!! I HAVE TO DISAPPEAR SOON SO YOU CAN ALL FORGET ABOUT ME!!! HELP HELP HELP ME I SCREAM!! BUT DON’T YOU KNOW, YOU HAVE SUCH A HELPLESS SOUL IN SUCH A HELPLESS BODY.