AngelKiti07Your blood is so precious, so sweetly.. It’s mine. I want to dig my teeth within, within your skin. So painful yet gently, oh how awfully pleasing. It reminds me of how you left the mark of love on my neck, so awfully small. Cannibalistic!!! I can see it once and for all!!! We crave the skin, I can understand it all clearly now. For some way shape or form, we are all cannibalistic lovers deep down trapped in a face. Don’t you feel the attraction to the body? Or are you being awfully shallow? If you dive deeper into your flesh, like you did to my so called body. You entered my body, how you dove deeper within the flesh, craving more as you touched my breast. You are everything, you are it all!! I would eat you in the act of pure love, pure care, well everything.. all!!! But the difference between those who are only at the start, don’t understand that I’m craving pure flesh, I am craving your love, your tenderness and all. I want to understand your body, everything inside!!!
“I’m going to kill you,” I exclaimed as I took the huge, big knife away, straight from my heart, as it bled painfully for the rest of my life. I can’t lose you, for you are it all. Oh, you are like my Jesus Christ. My savior, my all. The longing fear of never having love disappeared once and for all. For I am your dog, and I’ll give you my all.
My head is so messed up, so please don’t tell me otherwise. But when I’m high, people think I’m even more crazy when really I have a better understanding of everything, me and this life. Although writing quite sporadically, I understand that this is how a normal person should feel. Alive, not warped up in some unknown reality. One that is so trapped beneath my dirty scars!!!
For I am afraid I have gotten too far, my brain is no longer the same, but is that really a shame? For I have changed, and I’m only changing more, until one day.. I figure out how to reach my final form!!
I’ll stab through your flesh in a manner so maddening from this painful agony that would ruin my mind and perception of time. Stab you once, and then more until the heart ripes as everything would grow more sickening. Rip out your stomach and digest everything inside you, have you connected to me, even in this physical form that I can’t call mine. For not only would the soul connect, but so would our blood. Watching you leave this world would be so appalling, as the blood seeps out of your lifeless body and your eyes grow so cold.
This pain would just be saddening, compared to only maddening, as I would never feel the warmth of your body, your heart, your soul. I rather beg and plead for you not to leave me. To use me as nothing and hit me until I see the stars. Oh so far! How pathetic, I can see it all!!! As I get on my knees and beg for you to stay. For you to never leave me, even though you could be the one to deceive me!! Only in that dream, that i can’t see, yet it comes to me so clearly. Suddenly everything is so bleak, as I remember how it feels like to live in my mind, my soul , heart, body.. my reality!!! What would I do if I didn’t have the strength for anger, would I not be able to handle myself any longer? Would i kill myself once for and all, and end so many of my suffering souls, wondering somewhere in this world, different dimensions, and realities!! So many different possibilities, so many stories, so many endings that feel neverlasting!! But one thing I know for certain, is that you can never leave my soul, even when I die. For we are connected for the rest of eternity. And there are no more certain possibilities, other than how our souls are so very daunting, and will take over us combined over time, in every single lifetime. So please, my sweet boy, don’t leave me one day. For keep me until I die, as I try to last this insanity of my mind. Let me stay longer, and I’ll love you. I’ll give you my all. And I would do anything for you, sacrifice it all. Get on my knees and listen to anything you please. For I love you and that is enough, for it all, for me to be blessed. You will never find a lover like me, for I am a girl whose love will last even if this all becomes a tragedy. I will make you mine, in the form of art for everyone to see. Or I shall keep you selflessly where you will shine for more than eternity. For a writer’s lover can never die, especially not in my own mind
Oh I love you, I love you so. I am such a tragedy and you are the beauty that is ever so baffling. And together, we will become one, a beautiful tragedy.
-ANGELKITI07
